Free Yourself

So sings Ms. Fantasia.....

Baby you don't pay me no mind
You act like you don't love me no more
Maybe you need space or some time
Your attitude is uppredictable and I don't want to make you unhappy
If your not happy then you're free to go on cuz I don't want you stayin around if I make you so
Miserable

[Chorus]
If you don't want me then don't talk to me (if you don't want me then don't talk to me)
Go ahead and free yourself (go ahead and free yourself)
If you don't want me then don't talk to me (if you don't want me then don't talk to me)
Go ahead to someone else (go ahead to someone else)
If you don't want me then don't talk to me (if you don't want me then don't talk to me)
Go ahead and free yourself (go ahead and free yourself)
If you don't want me then don't talk to me (if you don't want me then don't talk to me)
Go ahead to someone else (go ahead to someone else)

[Bridge]
Time again and again I tried
I tried (baby don't you know I tried)
but the love I had inside has
Died
has died (but the love I had inside)
Wont you be a man if it's over and just admit that things aint the same instead of making me
Think its all good
Between us which one's the blame
I took a lot of too much to handle until I can't take this game no more this love thing is full
Of scandal so you welcome to walk

[Chorus]
If you don't want me then don't talk to me (if you don't want me then don't talk to me)
Go ahead and free yourself.


Now I am NOT gonna bash this song... I love this song... in fact I downloaded the song as one of my ringtones... lol

BUT... I have questions concerning this song...

WHY does she give HIM the power of ending a relationship that she knows is failing? She speaks of how they, as a couple, are deteriorating. WHY doesn't SHE walk away?

Is this the way we as women handle relationships that are no good for us? Once things change, do we wait to see if things will change back?

Don't we know that some men will keep us around as "options"... you know... like that red shirt that they haven't worn but won't throw away because they MIGHT wear it one day?

Come on people... talk to me about this.

100 Truths... (borrowed)

1. I am a Taurean Female. Yeah... STUBBORN...lol
2. I have 4 siblings, 2 brothers, two sisters.
3. My biological father died of cancer
4. My last husband died 11 years ago.
5. I've never had my 15 minutes of fame... where is it??!!
6. I hate being wrong.
7. I can be the best friend you want to have.
8. I am confrontational.
9. I'm not afraid to use the word "fat".
10. I'm not as strong as people think I am.
11. I don't eat healthy most times.
12. I think I have the talent to make CD's.
13. I wish I could play the keyboards.
14. I speak ebonics too fluently.
15. I like to do grocery shopping at 2 am.
16. I snore.
17. All of my natural grandparents have died.
18. I have pretty feet and hands.
19. I hate disappointing anyone.
20. I hate the outdoors unless its the beach.
21. I hate being called sexy... can I just turn it off???
22. I have an illegitimate child.
23. I am addicted to chocolate.
24. I learn words to songs very quickly.
25. I love to smile.
26. I would rather read the book before I watch the movie.
27. I once wanted to be a high dollar call girl.

28. On Sunday mornings, I wish I could sleep late.
29. I wish I could grow long hair.
30. I start Christmas shopping way too late.
31. I hate driving.
32. I have cheated in relationships.
33. I've been married twice, engaged four times, widowed once.
34. I have an amazing memory when it comes to useless facts and information.
35. I don't like to cry in front of people.
36. I am a sexual abuse survivor.
37. I sometimes wish I never lost my virginity.
38. I've never broken a bone in my body.
39. I am afraid of losing my mother.
40. I can count the number of "friends" on one hand.
41. I've never been on a cruise.
42. I'm afraid of drowning.
43. I love my bed.
44. I've pursued a man before, even when he wasn't really into me.
45. I'm opinionated.
46. I like arguing sometimes.
47. I never get enough sleep.
48. I believe that what you give is what you get back .
49. I don't believe that you are what you attract.
50. I love to sing.
51. Taking care of people comes naturally to me.
52. I hate people sometimes.
53. I hate being called "sweet".
54. I learn from some of my mistakes.
55. I don't like surprises.
56. I love God. I am learning to honor Him more.
57. I think common sense and common courtesy should be taught in school.
58. I don't want to die.
59. I'm really not as cool or as open as I put myself out to be. Actually NERD fits... lol
60. I used to be addicted to the internet.
61. I believe in the power of love
62. First impressions aren't necessarily lasting impressions.
63. I am NOT a morning person, but I fake it.
64. I like watching people.
65. I hate shopping.
66. I used to be really shy.
67. I am a recovering sex addict.
68. I want a tattoo.
69. I wish I had the courage to get my nose pierced.
70. I hate being told no.
71. I have never taken illegal drugs.
72. I have had 4 threesomes.
73. I procrastinate.
74. I write poetry.
75. I like my music loud.
76. I believe that knowledge IS power.
77. I want to visit Paris, France.
78. I am right handed.
79. I am unorganized.
80. I am friendly.
81. I go to Wal-Mart to relax.
82. It's hard for me to accept compliments.
83. I have lost 2 babies due to spontaneous abortion ( misscarriages).
84. I don't think abortion is a solution.
85. I think women should know themselves and be in control of their lives.
86. I hate ignorance.
87. I love the power of words.
88. I want to get married again.
89. I have knowingly slept with married men.
90. I enjoy a good glass of wine.
91. I believe in soulmates.
92. I'm basically a loner.
93. I have no secrets... I am an open book if you dare to turn the pages.
94. I am an avid reader.
95. I wish I had finished my degree sooner.
96. I'm thinking about having plastic surgery.
97. I love scented candles.
98. I am bad about returning phone calls.
99. I love recklessly .
100. I love me.

Beware of Strangers!!!

Why I entertain strangers on my IM is still a mystery to me...
check out this pseudo conversation....
*still shakin my head*



**********: sup ma
choklitsilk02: who is ma?
**********: you shawty
**********: mami
choklitsilk02: naw... son... that isnt me
**********: ma is short for mami
choklitsilk02: ok... I know that... I just hate the term
choklitsilk02: that and shawty...
**********: well say that
choklitsilk02: I may be short...
choklitsilk02: but I am nobody's shawty
**********: then you would hate for me to say shawty
choklitsilk02: yes... I dont like that term either
choklitsilk02: thing is... why do guys think women like being called that crap?
**********: wats ur name
choklitsilk02: You can call me Silk
**********: did your mother name u silk
choklitsilk02: my mama didnt name me mami or shawty... and you thought to call me that... so ... *shrug*... does that matter?
**********: yes why cant i call you by your real name instead of callin you something that your birth name
**********: aint ur birth name
choklitsilk02: why u didnt ask me my birth name BEFORE you found stuff to address me with?choklitsilk02: you can call me Silk
**********: well when i read your bp page i didnt see a name but choklit
choklitsilk02: you didnt read well enough
choklitsilk02: my name IS there... if you were paying attention to something other than the picture

**********: im chocolate and i know you dont taste as good as i

**********: okkkk
choklitsilk02: I never said I tasted good... I dont have to say it... too many OTHERS have said and continue to say it
**********: i hear ya barking
choklitsilk02: I need references?
choklitsilk02: if so... trust... I can provide them
**********: goto my profile
choklitsilk02: why?
**********: here is my refrences
**********: look at all this chocolate
choklitsilk02: ok... I have no interest in seeing your webcam
choklitsilk02: I am at work...
choklitsilk02: besides... you dont have anything I havent already seen in my lifetime...
**********: ok sorry glad u told me you might be working in a police station last i heard they had an apb out for this chocolate fudge stick of mines
**********: bet 100 dollars to your twenty
choklitsilk02: please... you are in danger...of believing your own hype
choklitsilk02: get over it dude... a dick is a dick is a dick... yours works just like every other man's
**********: no mine is double breasted
choklitsilk02: Its obvious you are looking for some little girl to play web games with... I am a woman... and I dont have time for this...
choklitsilk02: ok?
**********: im 35 and i dont playgames aint that wat the screenname say
choklitsilk02: I see what it says... but I am checking out your talk... they dont match
**********: so u say
choklitsilk02: webcam during the day? webgames
*********: im not naked or anything you didnt have to worry
choklitsilk02: I aint worried... cuz I am not interested...
**********: your loss
choklitsilk02: not even close
choklitsilk02: cuz I didnt approach you
choklitsilk02: you approached me
choklitsilk02: so actually... its YOUR loss...
**********: so u say remember the name and thats playnogames Entertainment
choklitsilk02: well have fun entertaining the immature minds of the web... Peace

For Kim and Nora....

I finally read that bloggin mess yall put in my bloggin 360... I mean... what tha blog is wrong with you people??? LOL Just so you know... I didn't bloggin know how to do a feed for this bloggity blog... but since Ms. Nora's blogheadded self decided to post the link... you guys get the blog now thru Yahoo's bloggin 360... now enjoy the posts... and yall betta bloggin post... yall bloggity blog blog blogheads...
I love yall... lol

Starting Over...

Spring sprung... Summer was hot... and now we are at the brink of the Fall season...
I like the changing of the seasons... and I am thinking of doing something different... I am thinking about cutting my hair... starting all over with a new head of hair.

It wont be the first time I've gone back to my roots... see ~>

it was fun... lets see how it works this time!