Anybody want some kids?

I wonder... no... ponder on the issues of adoption...

I know that babies are a hot commodity...

adorable
cuddly
innocent and new...

this is what most people desire

but the older children...
no one really wants them

why?

I wonder what are the circumstances
that cause these children to need good homes...

Did mama and dad die?

are they crackheads?

is there no one in the blood line capable?

are they problem children?

what it is?

for mine ( the older 2) I will tell the truth

their mom is just sick of their crap...

Serious!

I don't really mean to trivialize the woes of older kids in the system...
but if my older two don't get it together... they will be a part of that system... cuz
Mama just cannot take it anymore....

*sniff*

Who do you love? Are you for sure?

Listening to some ol' skool rap and r&b... I heard LL doing the song Loungin'... and the hook got me to thinking about some of the things we say...

"I love the skin I'm in..."

"I am just me... love me or hate me..."

"I love myself unconditionally..."

"If I don't love, me who will?"



I have said these things to myself... and I now have to wonder if I truly am telling the truth...
I don't hold myself to the standard of love for me that I would hold a man coming into my life...

I lie to myself sometimes (I will start my diet tomorrow)...
I cheat on myself (when I was trying to be celibate for whatever reason and I talked myself into doin it with someone I didnt love...ugh!)
I treat my body badly( lawd I could overdose on chocolate)...
I take unnecessary risks (seatbelts work to save lives)...

I hadda ask myself... Who DO you love? and are you for sure? I am learning that we do not have a healthy love for self ... one that will make us better or wiser.

I resolve to learn how to love myself enough not to lie to myself...
I resolve to learn how to take my safety more seriously...
I resolve to learn how to take care of me by eating better and exercising more...
I resolve to not cheat myself nor cheat on myself...I am God's woman... until He gives me away... I aint got nothin for these menfolks...lol


Now ask yourself... do you really love you? Are you sure?

New Math

I breathe you every moment of my day
Blessed to touch your essence
Dazzled by your presence,
Even when you’re not here.

Deeply…
I breathe
(inhale)
And…

You inhabit my soul
Joining your self to me
Your heart banging in my chest
You thinking my thoughts
Your blood flowing in my veins
Certainly now I can rest because
The twain has become one.

1+1=1
You and me
Are one
You plus me
Equals us
I in you and you in me
Equals we…
And nothing else matters.

What's on YOUR list?

I know ... I'm skipping Thanksgiving ... but not really... we are supposed to think about Christmas in plenty of time so that we aren't rushing and maxing out credit cards trying to get the "perfect" gift for our loved ones... so I think my post really is late... alas... here goes!

If you could have the perfect, most extravagant gift... something you wouldn't DARE think of buying for yourself... what would it be?

I, personally, would ACCEPT an all expense paid trip to ANYWHERE away from here ... one week living in the lap of luxury would be just the ticket! I need a BREAK... away from school... from bills... from kids... wait... no... I'd have to have my babies with me... but can I have nannies for each one of them? LOL Seriously... I have to see my kids everyday or I am not functioning at full potential. But I digress... this post isn't about that...

Now... 2nd question...What is the most extravagant gift you would like to buy for someone if you could handle the expense?

Me... I would like to take my mom on a week long cruise... all expenses paid... I know a week doesn't sound like a lot... but I know Mama... she will start wanting her own bed after 4 days... she will muddle through the last 3...lol
AND... I would love to give my son a big screen TV just for playing his XBoX...
AND... I would love to get my daughter a larger bedroom... decorated from top to bottom by Pottery Barn Kids... painted to her specifications... letting her pick out just whatever!
AND finally to my Tre' Tre'... I would love to give him a life sized Elmo doll along with all the decorations for his nursery... he thinks Elmo is the bomb! LOL


Although Christmas isn't totally about the gifts... we all love giving them... and we certainly love receiving them... right?

looking for your answers people... Q^Q

Send Flowers...

In mourning for the dead
I take the time to shed
Tears
That allow me to cleanse my spirit
Of you.
Your touch,
Your smile,
Your hugs,
Your kisses,
Those wonderful things, I’ll be missing.
The way you swagger when you walk.
The southern drawl when you talk
All these things will be laid to rest.
Gotta think of me and what is best.
You had taken residence in my dome,
In my heart, you had a home
But now the time has come
Because we both know you’re not the one
Who’s worthy of this space
So a funeral must take place.
The man I once knew is no more.
The man I see now has made my heart sore
With all his false promises
His lies and neglect.
Like a noose around my neck
Had a hold on me.
But I’ve let go.
I say good-bye to you, my hopes and dreams
They’re gone to hell with you,
Or so it seems.