Winding down...

I love the holidays... *sigh*

The wonderful smell of food cooking... holiday parties... people are usually in good spirits...
I especially loved holiday time when I was married. I am such a social person and I loved having a companion who would go places and do things with me...that is the ONE thing that brings me down this time of year...

My favorite activity during the holiday time when my husband was living was the wind down... after a day of cleaning, shopping, cooking, visiting, etc., we would spend those last moments before going to sleep going over our day... recapping all the stuff we did... talking about the funny stuff that may have happened...something someone did or said that truly caused us to pause for a moment... barely speaking above a whisper we would wind down... bonding as a couple... we would wind down... finding our comfortable spot on our respective sides of the bed... I felt blessed to have those quiet moments with him... no tv, no phone, no babies,... just us... reliving our day, appreciating our bond.... and each other... winding down...

Its been 17 years... and I still miss this... *sigh*

Looking forward...

54 days left in the year...

While I cannot say what the future will hold, I am looking forward to the new year... 2011 has held quite a bit of heartache and headache for me... I'm ready for the change that comes with the new year...

54 days left in the year...

Although I do not make it a practice to do new years resolutions, I do reflect and try to see what DIDN'T work ... and seek to create change for the better... I am going to work on my weight (again...), and I am going to work on being a happier me... I will finish this master's degree come 2012 (November) and my eldest son will start his senior year in 2012...some wonderful things to look forward to...

54 days left in the year...

I promise to take better care of my heart... making decisions from my mind, will and intellect and not based upon this desperately wicked thing (that's what the bible says...) that constantly tricks me into thinking I know what love is... and it only turns out to be hurt... again... yes... I will seek to save my heart from unnecessary hurt and pain... love aint what its cracked up to be unless its the love of God...

54 days left in the year...

I will work to be a smarter, stronger, slimmer, shapelier sista... I will find opportunities to step outside my comfort zone and make my life richer and fuller...

But in the meantime... I will enjoy these next few weeks... enjoy my friends and family and loved ones...
enjoy the holiday parties and gatherings...
enjoy the food... (YES!)
enjoy the company...
enjoy me...

because...

there are only 54 days left in this year...but none are promised!