Love and Hate

Sometimes I think that love and hate are the same emotion... just different sides of it.
Let me explain what I mean. I have figured out that, in order to hate someone, you have to have loved them at some point... but you have let anger and disappointment cover up that love and change it. I mean, why waste such a powerfully motivation emotion such as hate on someone you don't give a hill of beans about? I mean, if we didn't care what a person did or said... why does it hurt so bad? If we have no emotion towards a person and their actions, then why are we utterly and completely disappointed when they fail to keep their word? Hate is then the DARK side to love... motivated by anger at the one you still love. How do I know this to be true? I have experienced hatred before. I hated this person so much so that I wouldn't even speak his name. And if someone else spoke his name, I was quick to leave their presence. Years later, he and I had an encounter and I realized that the reason I hated him was because of my disappointment. I expected some things to occur in our relationship that clearly did not happen. When I decided to FORGIVE him, I realized that I did still indeed love him but had not admitted that I was hurt behind loving him.

Now I'm not saying that hate is a GOOD thing... it isnt... it can tear at your soul, cause illnesses to occur in your body, and cause an early demise... all this even if you don't reach out to hurt the person you hate... and I seriously don't recommend reaching out to touch someone's life in that way either... revenge is a mutha(shut yo' mouth!)

I am dealing with a personal situation right now that can easily lead to me hating someone. I choose not to venture into the dark side of love... I wanna keep my heart lively, full of light... not the darkness that hatred can bring.