Be Warmed and Filled...

5 Miles to empty
My heart is running low
I need a good man to fill me up
I need a good man to give me lovin'...

~Brownstone~


ok... what is it about some of us? Vast voids inside our emotions and our pschyes (sp) that we think only a pair of bulging biceps (and every other virile body part) of the male species can fill?

I used to think that my empty feeling came from being widowed once upon a time... you know... once having tasted the heavenly gift of marital bliss (whateva)...and all that jazz...
but if we really tell the truth... I mean get right down to where the rubber meets the road...those of us who have been in majorly committed relationships know that even sometimes your man can be sitting right in your face... and you feel all alone... you feel that void...

What is it we crave? Is it sex? nah... can't be that basic... because why is it when we find that 5 minute explosion with whatever toy we use... we still feel empty... alone...void?

Is it the need to talk? If so... why is it that we can be on the phone or at lunch with our best friend that we sometimes have an overwhelming desire to be held?

Another thing... what man in his right mind would want someone who depends upon them for their wholeness? their completeness? *shudder*

I think we should take a good look at we really crave...
Love...
This is something many of us think we have NEVER experienced... True Love...
Or something so many of us think we have every time we encounter the next piece of flesh that suits our fancy and makes the nether regions tingle...

But thanks be to God... some of us really have love in our lives... and we really do not acknowledge it for what it is...
The love of our wonderful Savior...

The last year of my life has been ultra trying... and the one thing I know that was a constant was God's love... some days it carried me when I didnt think I could go another further..... some days it revived me when I just wanted to lay down and die..... some days it filled me when I was so hungry for what my flesh wanted that I could taste it...and some days it was a gentle breeze across my cheek... just to let me know He was still here with me... and that He... the God of all flesh... had MY back!

I admonish each and every one to allow God's love be what warms and fills us... just as God let Apostle Paul know that HIS Grace was sufficient... Allow the love of a Holy God to be sufficient... Let it fill you up ... heal you in all those broken places... warm all those places the sun refuses to shine upon and make you whole... then... when the right one comes ... you wont need him to fill you... you can just bask in more of the Love afforded to you by the one who love you most and loves you best... and me too!